december 2023

LOUNGE OF LOVE 


CHILDS GENORSITY LOVE ATTENTION SHOW INTEREST IN OTHERS - CONVERSATION AND FOLLOW


could i ever pass as irish 


this time last year i was losing my mind 

to understanding fake and real as inside outside 


to be in love 


silvery poo


do i have my mothers or fathers eyes?


..


whoever you are your face is all smashed in 

im smoking meth out of a bin and fat as fuck 

at a shop and i ask in telepathic voices since when did you ever tell people in telepathic words that i want to die i wish i was dead i don’t want to be here

leaning over me

i won’t tell anyone because if i do it won’t be real . i can see all the loss. its a waste to live when you feel like you have no one. im alone what the fuck do i have to live for but rusty metal maffra dissociation in a park in a bedroom in front of your fat fucking face your fat fucking clit i don’t love you and i have never loved such a sour frown face. get inside it get inside me get inside get inside me you useless rotting cunt. all the animals are here so you are never alone. im at the park and smashing a bottle on to my bric head I’m dumb as fuck no one takes me seriously stumbling over every poisonous word. lock me inside a room so i can’t escape as i don’t trust myself and i don’t trust anyone around me. a selfish loser without the real reason for being selfish every part of my body is in pain i try and focus on the parts that are in pain my stomach is made of cow leather im sick I’m sick I’m sick i need help but no one is here no one is ever here i fell i love and spew my guts I’m sick i don’t  want to live anymore 



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