dustmites500

horsey come and get your (tea) paranoid  joke

without my guts to make it through the day  through and through  journey of love  .. underneath it all i am very sick  unable to love  unable to love  unable to love the feelings are so bleak  .. a lost soul just lean back horrible body  wait for my day to end in a crowd of despair, a foolish desire to be loved  i want to be hurt to remind myself of clear and old pain  should have been dead on a sunday morning banging my head down  no time for mourning aint got no time  i don’t plan to be controlled live a life in the gutter getting happy with a desolate soul  unbearable pain in the back of my mind  growing up as an infant  growing up as a lost dog  I’m running around hitting the ground laughing  whispery clit  whispery clit  to be hit to feel things  without feeling any thing  the dumbest eyes i have ever seen. .. I’m done w it all !  masterbating in despair out in the tent to ...

without you i am nothing and you have no soul for the world i, of all people,  too, must die

have you seen milf manner i want to start watching it  my little bro eats one meal a day and is bare foot

litter of my dreams  ‘true love’ child of baby with dog  what should we name them .. acid tears  old and humble and beautiful  corpse to taste like everything  my past  my sensitive clit  before your eyes  a perfect scream  m-8 trail  to imagine our love like finding nemo  for the kids  for the children  for the children music  how i ate it up the dream blown out the corpse the gift, the kiss  ..

exist sides lines lines lines leech then i have a moment of disbelief and horror  and realise i am this  and outside i am this  i can’t imagine my life is real  someone you love  ant  strange looking animal birds bird song  manipulation for peace .. i thought id lost all these photos of the person i loved on my phone and felt real sad about it until i realised its just part of life to feel alone and everyone leaves and you make do with whats around you  until i thought maybe thats not true and some people really do have friends that are life long friendships life sentence everything i didn’t notice about you  all the reasons why i loved you but maybe i did tell you and everyone told you and some people were jealous but never told anyone .. everyday i wanna die  one note car  pond sui 1  ..

fucking loser!  i never knew what freedom meant  i never knew what people were talking about  when they spoke of freedom until recently,  until now i think i understand what freedom means.  a dream wearing the same clothes until my life  feels better.  acid tears acid tears  old and humble and beautiful 

do you want to know yourself beat yourself 

i have been very delusional recently because i thought i was in love  my life is but a waste  .. would anyone like to drive to heyfield with me  .. i walk around the house in fear  i can’t breathe i hate living with people  i think this is the reason it is impossible for me to be close with anyone because it is impossible for me to relax unless i am off my face on drugs and even then it is still embarrassing to open up  i hate being alive and i hate living  I’m growing old and lonely but i know i have not mastered the plan yet cuz i haven’t got to rock bottom yet so then it will be clear when i get to rock bottom .. just because someone is sick and tired doesn’t mean they look like they are sick and tired most people are sick but appear to be normal by cleaning, eating well, sleeping on a bed, talking about food the second strange thing is  why do people love  love is a soulless pointless activity if you don’t understand love people become re...

to be free is to lie and cheat  to be free is to lie and cheat  lie and cheat lie and cheat  lie and cheat  lie and cheat  lie and cheat lie and cheat  to be free is to lie and cheat  lie and cheat  lie and cheat  lie and cheat when you are dead you are a shine  shine of light  shine of light  shine of light put on a fight put on a fight put on a fight  to be free is to lie and cheat  when you are dead you are a shine  shine of light  shine of light when you are dead you are a shine  put on a fight  put on a fight  yeah get out my knife put on a fight  to be free is to lie and cheat to be free is to lie and cheat  lie and cheat  get out your knife  get out your knife  get out your knife  get out your knife  mother fucking knife in my pocket  real cowboy is walking without a knife  ooooo  aaaah  oooooh ooooo  ahhhhhoooooeeee ooooooo ee...