june 2023

exist sides lines lines lines leech

then i have a moment of disbelief and horror 

and realise i am this 

and outside i am this 

i can’t imagine my life is real 

someone you love 

ant 

strange looking animal

birds

bird song 

manipulation for peace


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i thought id lost all these photos of the person i loved on my phone and felt real sad about it until i realised its just part of life to feel alone and everyone leaves and you make do with whats around you 


until i thought maybe thats not true and some people really do have friends that are life long friendships life sentence everything i didn’t notice about you 

all the reasons why i loved you but maybe i did tell you and everyone told you and some people were jealous but never told anyone


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everyday i wanna die 

one note car 

pond sui 1 


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