march 2024

i don’t normally dress like this 

ear ache 

why did it take you this fucking long to understand the meaning of life

and better yet, people that say they are in love with people they hardly know have a corrupt if not violent brain 

celebrity 

i may have left the world with a bad vibe 

how you feel next, after it, if you can’t, if you can’t give any love love love!

i may have left the world with a bad vibe if you can’t 

just because you fell in love once 

lifes not that important anyway 

but you lost your silly chances 

you were cute 

lopsided, pretty, your ARMS AND LEGS FALL to THE GROUND EVERY SINGLE TIME 

if love is not enough to live, then what makes it worth all your while? aren’t you just so over feeling worthless, your pussy is sour as is the geo state of affairs, do you know what i mean. why it feels weird, why you can’t see it. all that resides at the black lake, you don’t know tar you don’t understand true real lively alive pain . not at all you. wake up and walk leave the house in every state. just don’t sit around for long enough. i want to see you melt and forget me, please forget me.

things you aren’t telling no one about. things you are afraid to say to yourself then to someone else. like the dreams that are not present. and the question back and fourth marble swinging game. the question why love is new and hard. and that deep feeling of waste. that deep feeling of guilt. being guilty. not knowing, knowing what turns you on. feeling bad about it and not quite understanding it, so then feeling bad about it even more. you are meant to stay with yourself. you are meant to feel things like digging experiments. when you get buried it is cold and fresh. getting buried is not dirty. what is dirty. you’re not a victim anymore. its just how you had to cope, cuz every sign of love made me strange scared