november

friendship is like throwing rocks into a gold mine

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its a long way to go

just for sex 

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beautiful gift 

of opioid

drug therapy 

human ugliness 

exhausted by words 

lack of gifts 

i think its pretty obvious i never learnt how to hang out 

like a rock star

give head to your hard COCK 

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naturally horny 

by being touched 

regardless of situation dynamic 

horny 

let yourself be touched 

quietly under the covers 

you hold my hand

and rub my clit 

its the first time like magnets pulsating through my body 

i could be anywhere

right now

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people are lost 

murder happens in the park 

don’t tell me thats something unrelated to us 

theres no use to it 

doing it i swear ill stay up all night and finish you off

finish giving you head 

a hand job 

in the night garden on herione 

I’ve got so much to live for 

my last week 

what is left to live for 

spending money daily 

make time for me

my snot nose 

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relieve wind and griping pain

make time for me

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lyrics for keyboard songs 

but i want it but i can’t get it

record lyrics while listening songs that come out naturally 

i never have enough Muti funeral add to keyboard

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an ongoing feeling of waste

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piss, wash yourself, clean your teeth with bloody gums 

im all in your heat 

burned black in a playground 

burned black in a playground 

headlice 

majurna and a time for joy

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finish on the silence

day dreaming

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ill have to house my personality to make up for the loss of photographs

its an empty life

i’ve got a mattress 

laying here looking outside the window is the sun 

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family photo album 

and thats where i lay in deliberate pain 

you can take everything out of me until i am pure 

left with transexual blood loss stupidity greed obesity 

running in sydney park at dark 

the sky is purple

the water is blue 

you are stupid.

I’m better then all of you 

no fucking memories.

it made me feel so dead.

i can’t share it with you 

great photography I’m just like my dad 

worn out

children viewed sexual

getting in a car 

driving away 

you sunken loss 

you do everything wrong 

you trip over it grind your teeth hurt it stumble it 

you’re just dumb 

if i can show you love 

ill show you my pain

i was on heroin, i left you dead 

you are beautiful

and i am dead

and if i died i would mind heaps

it makes me want to cry

(looking at the photo album) 

drawings of margot

a children’s book about rape)

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i roll over in the bed 

perfect the craft of wetting the bed,

walk the dog

blankets and cots 

i’ve got nothing to say

sex in multiple positions breath of hate, 

“im all in your heat"

fingered down a side street

i put my head under the blanket 

and speak with my eyes closed 

rotten selfish words of love

i declare my self pity 

i declare my love for you

im so proud of you, baby

you did well. 

the gift of desperation

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i wanna lay down next to some one beautiful and remind myself what it feels like to want to kill myself in front of the person you love

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a dream within a dream doesn’t feel the same 

if i am not beside you 

to tell you 

the dream is over 

and i am horny 

so please wake up 

( for me )

2.

i can call you 

whenever i want 

god is here

3.

love is all around you 

so is sexual feeling 

lineman space is forgetting 

and remembering god 

4.

i woke up feeling drowsy and god-like 

u must be from outta town

no, defintly from outta space 

u sound like the buddha, well thats because i am 

5.

i don’t know why 

6.

fuck you , male prostitution hurts everyone too 

7.

i love you, a child said to a tree 

i love you, a tree said to a child 

you come from no where 

pure presence 

pure god 

no where

 

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its cuz your not being honest when uspeak that u can’t talk

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